internalized oppression/ irrepressible idealism (Dear Janine)

Sometimes.

I feel so lonely.

and so scared.

I don't know: what to do.

where to run.

where to hide.

the Rage does not satisfy.

Sometimes. I choke. on it.

scared&lonely even though things always end up okay -- even as they do not go as hoped for

or as planned.

Would you believe... it's the idealistic hoping that makes it so?

I can't help but hope -- can't help but fight for it -- can't help but pursue that revolutionary ideal... as I imagine it... in the context of myLife.

And it is that very thing -- that very thing -- that scares me the most.

that leaves me feeling isolated.

Ebony.

and

Irony:)